I really should go to sleep and/or clean up the second 1/2 of my kitchen. Too many things on my mind..
It has been a long day, I woke up on time. What I didn't know was that my son advanced my clock an hour ahead. I woke him in a panic. Then started throwing things together downstairs until I noticed the clocks were right. He admitted that it was an April's Fool's joke. I pointed out that not only is it April 4th, but that he got woken up a 1/2 hour early. He laughed and explained that it being a Monday school morning it would be more effective, so he had waited. It was also way worth being woken up early to see me in crazy mode. "I got you... didn't I ?"
LOLOL, yes, Max yes, you did. What a shyster.
I got a lot of things done today. Things that I hate doing, phone calls, appointments, taxes, insurance. I really shudder here. I loathe talking on the phone.
Last night I took the dog for a walk, our parks here are unlit and there aren't any streetlights. Beautiful Arizona weather, I am in shorts, sandals and a sleeveless shirt. I look up and around, so many many stars. I hate light pollution. As a teenager I snuck out of the house and walked my neighborhood. The primary purpose was to smoke cigarettes and later weed, too. But as cold and snowy as Illinois can be or even hot and muggy, I enjoyed the walk. I would go down by the creek and think it a damn shame that it was so polluted. I avoided the few cars, and only once or twice got asked what I was doing by people in cars. Both of those times I was higher than a kite.
My neighborhood was all houses, no businesses at all..5 miles away a few bars might have been open. Not that would really have done me any good. The walk to town was scary.. and somewhat dangerous. Later as I got older, my friends would pick me up My parents insisted that 9pm was my bedtime and way past theirs..even at 17. I got busted a few times..but I still went nightly. One of my girlfriend's Mom found out and insisted that I was welcome at their house. I became a nightly visitor.. and later stayed with them. Awesome people, awesome family..I owe them so much.
The thin line I walked...as a parent now?? No wonder my folks got so crazy about it.
My daughter went to a friend's house after school. I was very excited for her, had met the boy and his Mom once. I had never heard anything but good about him from teachers at school. They have eaten lunch at school together for almost 2 years now. She called me from their house, as she was supposed to do and told me her cell phone wasn't working. Cell phone service out here can be pretty spotty. No big deal. Until I went to call her back about 6:00 Pm, and found out the number was blocked.
That is when I realized that I didn't know the boy's last name, exactly where he lived, except which neighborhood. I didn't have any way to get a hold of her. I hadn't even specified what time she should be home. Hell...and duh.
My son and I have had rules stemming back from 2 years ago when he didn't bring his phone, was supposed to be at one's friends house and went to a different one and stayed out till after 9. Yeah, not a good night. Why didn't I with Renee?
I posted my worries on Face book at 8pm and had so much feedback. LOVE YOU ALL! went to my neighbors and was trying to call people who might know him. Then Renee calls...yes! After trying to figure out where they lived the mom drove her home. Jacob has Asperger's too. They had a wonderful night and I have made a new friend here.
Renee is in therapy for depression. This is her one and only true friend she has made in 2 1/2 years. She doesn't go to friends houses or have friends over or talk or text like any other 13 yr old would. I was so excited, still am and WOW! I went from panic mode to that intense feeling of joy for my child. She has needed this for so long.
Being a parent has been the most challenging thing I have ever done, being a wife is another...my levels. There will be a part two soon, but for now I have to get some sleep. Hug your child today and your spouse or special person..if you are alone hug yourself. The next step, forgive them and yourself for something stupid that has been bothering you. It will be worth it.
TTYAL..thanks for listening.
It has been a long day, I woke up on time. What I didn't know was that my son advanced my clock an hour ahead. I woke him in a panic. Then started throwing things together downstairs until I noticed the clocks were right. He admitted that it was an April's Fool's joke. I pointed out that not only is it April 4th, but that he got woken up a 1/2 hour early. He laughed and explained that it being a Monday school morning it would be more effective, so he had waited. It was also way worth being woken up early to see me in crazy mode. "I got you... didn't I ?"
LOLOL, yes, Max yes, you did. What a shyster.
I got a lot of things done today. Things that I hate doing, phone calls, appointments, taxes, insurance. I really shudder here. I loathe talking on the phone.
Last night I took the dog for a walk, our parks here are unlit and there aren't any streetlights. Beautiful Arizona weather, I am in shorts, sandals and a sleeveless shirt. I look up and around, so many many stars. I hate light pollution. As a teenager I snuck out of the house and walked my neighborhood. The primary purpose was to smoke cigarettes and later weed, too. But as cold and snowy as Illinois can be or even hot and muggy, I enjoyed the walk. I would go down by the creek and think it a damn shame that it was so polluted. I avoided the few cars, and only once or twice got asked what I was doing by people in cars. Both of those times I was higher than a kite.
My neighborhood was all houses, no businesses at all..5 miles away a few bars might have been open. Not that would really have done me any good. The walk to town was scary.. and somewhat dangerous. Later as I got older, my friends would pick me up My parents insisted that 9pm was my bedtime and way past theirs..even at 17. I got busted a few times..but I still went nightly. One of my girlfriend's Mom found out and insisted that I was welcome at their house. I became a nightly visitor.. and later stayed with them. Awesome people, awesome family..I owe them so much.
The thin line I walked...as a parent now?? No wonder my folks got so crazy about it.
My daughter went to a friend's house after school. I was very excited for her, had met the boy and his Mom once. I had never heard anything but good about him from teachers at school. They have eaten lunch at school together for almost 2 years now. She called me from their house, as she was supposed to do and told me her cell phone wasn't working. Cell phone service out here can be pretty spotty. No big deal. Until I went to call her back about 6:00 Pm, and found out the number was blocked.
That is when I realized that I didn't know the boy's last name, exactly where he lived, except which neighborhood. I didn't have any way to get a hold of her. I hadn't even specified what time she should be home. Hell...and duh.
My son and I have had rules stemming back from 2 years ago when he didn't bring his phone, was supposed to be at one's friends house and went to a different one and stayed out till after 9. Yeah, not a good night. Why didn't I with Renee?
I posted my worries on Face book at 8pm and had so much feedback. LOVE YOU ALL! went to my neighbors and was trying to call people who might know him. Then Renee calls...yes! After trying to figure out where they lived the mom drove her home. Jacob has Asperger's too. They had a wonderful night and I have made a new friend here.
Renee is in therapy for depression. This is her one and only true friend she has made in 2 1/2 years. She doesn't go to friends houses or have friends over or talk or text like any other 13 yr old would. I was so excited, still am and WOW! I went from panic mode to that intense feeling of joy for my child. She has needed this for so long.
Being a parent has been the most challenging thing I have ever done, being a wife is another...my levels. There will be a part two soon, but for now I have to get some sleep. Hug your child today and your spouse or special person..if you are alone hug yourself. The next step, forgive them and yourself for something stupid that has been bothering you. It will be worth it.
TTYAL..thanks for listening.
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