Been there,done that, don't want to do that, is that even possible?

My insanity is my reality. It is hard to face at times. It depends so much on what part of me I let handle it. If, if, if..

~~♥~~Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous.~~

LOL, my eyes are open now to so many things. I am an addict and I have no control. There's a very big part of me that wants to run away and hide. Just shut my eyes tightly with my hands over my ears and erase all the bits that bother me. I could do that and it isn't as hard as you would think. It is just another mask or persona you can mold and put over yourself. The problems with this, oh my..

"been there, done that"

I can stay where I am running around in circles in my mind, or take rides on the crazy train. Even worse yet is the runaway train of  just letting go, becoming so blitzed that there is no wrong or right, it is all sensation and feeling. Always searching for the next "high or low", agony and ecstasy...the well of depression is always there, "using" is second nature.

"been there, done that, don't want to do that"

I'm lonely..I know I am not the only one. I reach out to people that I care for and love. I pray. I pay for a therapist. I am taking steps in the right direction and a few that aren't. I do screw up..lol.

Two steps forward, two steps back on a slippery slope that leads to the unknown future, been at the bottom, can't quite glimpse the top..it is supposed to be the journey and not the destination…lol, uh-huh having sooo much fun..woo-hoo..LOLOL. -me-(sorry)

Yeah, I've been a bit down. My last message of this blog will be more hopeful, the next level?

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.   

We teach some by what we say

We teach some more by what we do

But we teach most by what we are

 You don't get to choose how you are going to die, or when, but, you can decide how you are going to live, here and now.  

 Remember:  people will forget what you said ...

 people will forget what you did ...

 but people will never forget how you made them feel ...

It's possible..:-)
TTYAL..thanks for listening..if you aren't feeling the love, time to go give some.