Hi All,
I know it has been quite a few days, crazy days..
I am here now today, trying to put it all in one thought. This is my 61st blog. I am at a crossroads of choices. I can circle around and around again..or take quite a few different paths.
My blog has talked about addictions (sex, love, facebook, alcohol,drugs, cigarettes..etc.), child/spouse and pet abuse, mental illness( depression, obsessive-compulsive behaviors, phobias, addiction again, borderline personality disorder, manic-depressives, ..etc.) Asperger's, obesity, stigma's attached to all of the above..death, hell/heaven and beliefs in God or a higher power.
Where do we go from here? LOL
I have more to say on all the above, I feel compelled to write. I am not sure if it helps anybody else reading about my daily struggles or not. I'd really like to think so.
I have made choices in the past, present. Messes, mistakes, I screw up all the time. Facing the consequences ahead, I am scared today. I have to reclaim myself, my family, my marriage, my life or just continue to react. My therapist threw down a gauntlet of choices today. I am still sorting them out. Two of his challenges, no more Facebook or blogging. I can't do it.
I am a facebook addict..I do not have any control. I am not strong enough to give it up yet. Baby steps..
My husband will be driving home today. I am happy, but at the same time just worn out from the emotional ups-and-downs. Two and a 1/2 days isn't long enough. We have a lot to talk about and decide, choices.
My bonuses, I still have friends to talk too. Even though he insists they aren't really "real". My weather is beautiful, the pool is getting warmer..I managed to get in 1/2 way! LOL, I am such a big wimp.
One of my girlfriends is coming to visit next month, Ya-hoo!
My level today is facing reality, and realizing I am failing at most of my goals. I am working on an action plan. I am trying to not be too harsh on myself but at the same time not letting myself off the hook.
I still have hope. I still have dreams..I am still hopping LOLOL.
Easter is about transformation, with sweet candy to wash it down, Spring is about re-birth and new growth.. Earth Day today celebrates the whole globe..I can only start with me.
I am okay. I am hoping you all are at least okay, or much much better. My level is enjoying today, my next level is getting things done. Thanks for listening. Happy Holidays! TTYAL.
I know it has been quite a few days, crazy days..
I am here now today, trying to put it all in one thought. This is my 61st blog. I am at a crossroads of choices. I can circle around and around again..or take quite a few different paths.
My blog has talked about addictions (sex, love, facebook, alcohol,drugs, cigarettes..etc.), child/spouse and pet abuse, mental illness( depression, obsessive-compulsive behaviors, phobias, addiction again, borderline personality disorder, manic-depressives, ..etc.) Asperger's, obesity, stigma's attached to all of the above..death, hell/heaven and beliefs in God or a higher power.
Where do we go from here? LOL
I have more to say on all the above, I feel compelled to write. I am not sure if it helps anybody else reading about my daily struggles or not. I'd really like to think so.
I have made choices in the past, present. Messes, mistakes, I screw up all the time. Facing the consequences ahead, I am scared today. I have to reclaim myself, my family, my marriage, my life or just continue to react. My therapist threw down a gauntlet of choices today. I am still sorting them out. Two of his challenges, no more Facebook or blogging. I can't do it.
I am a facebook addict..I do not have any control. I am not strong enough to give it up yet. Baby steps..
My husband will be driving home today. I am happy, but at the same time just worn out from the emotional ups-and-downs. Two and a 1/2 days isn't long enough. We have a lot to talk about and decide, choices.
My bonuses, I still have friends to talk too. Even though he insists they aren't really "real". My weather is beautiful, the pool is getting warmer..I managed to get in 1/2 way! LOL, I am such a big wimp.
One of my girlfriends is coming to visit next month, Ya-hoo!
My level today is facing reality, and realizing I am failing at most of my goals. I am working on an action plan. I am trying to not be too harsh on myself but at the same time not letting myself off the hook.
I still have hope. I still have dreams..I am still hopping LOLOL.
Easter is about transformation, with sweet candy to wash it down, Spring is about re-birth and new growth.. Earth Day today celebrates the whole globe..I can only start with me.
I am okay. I am hoping you all are at least okay, or much much better. My level is enjoying today, my next level is getting things done. Thanks for listening. Happy Holidays! TTYAL.
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