I haven't wanted to write this one which is why I keep putting it off. I flirt, men or women doesn't really matter..it is part of who I am. I love innuendo, especially subtle..or outrageous. I have always loved phrases or conversations that had more than one meaning, or more depending on how you looked at it.
I see the opposites of things, good/bad, yin/yang all the time. I can see another person's point of view, as I can shift my whole perspective and look at it the way they do. I have had many of an AHA! moment because of this. It also is a pain-in-the-ass.
I waffle a lot..too many choices. I say it doesn't matter and for a part of me it really doesn't. What the other part feels about it. Oh hell. I hope I am not freaking anyone out here to much. Crazy is as crazy does. I have convinced myself of the truth of some pretty bizarre things. Sometimes, I was completely and utterly wrong, at other times, wow!
The problem with being an Fb addict and a stalker.. (besides how embarrassing!) is the fact that I can then ignore reality completely for awhile. My "real" life is somewhat boring and almost always lonely. I love my fb friends. The bonus is that the obsession with my first guy i stalked is over. I check up on him, send an occasional message but...LOl. That's it. He has his good moments, and his own life..but the thrill for me is over. He's just a friend, besides having "fuck me eyes" and knowing a few too many things about me... nope, nada. I have another one now and a few more, and am trying to figure out what to do about it.
The "thrill" and all feels good. Too easy and too habit-forming..so I know it is wrong. I haven't crossed any lines with him or without him or with any of the others, either. That thin thin line..between just joking and serious intent. I can feel it there. I want to hop on over...and know better. So, I flirt with it.
My hubby and me have had a few discussions about all of this. One step at a time..he is willing to help, listen and learn. There are reasons I married him. Yep..still in love. He has almost quit smoking, last time it was a 10 year stretch. Facing his drinking? I wish he would accept help..is this a "typical" man thing? I am happy that he is thinking about it at least.
Working in a restaurant, we all flirted. I was one of the more crazy ones. You flirted with your customer's too. Nothing serious, and the Back-of-the-House was more of a tension release. People did hook up and see each other. I was never really tempted by anyone. They were all too young or not crazy enough..or(LOL) whatever and I was married/with Mark. It was safe, fun, outrageous..:-) Miss it.
My therapist? LOLOL..hates Face book. His "goal" is to get me to quit altogether, my "goal" is to get control and hmm..we have talked about it and will continue to do so. He insists that you can't have any kind of meaningful relationship with anyone electronically. I disagree. My friends mean so much to me.
My level? I am not sure today..I use my face book friends to have fun, to offer condolences, to get me to think, to care, to feel. Turning it off to spend time with my kids is a challenge at times. This Saturday, will be my plan day..see how well I can do. Your level..? You know if you have a problem with this. if you have better solutions, please share.
Time to go make some dinner, beef stew tonight and hug at least one of my kids. If they will let me. Have a great day and TTYAL thanks for listening.
I see the opposites of things, good/bad, yin/yang all the time. I can see another person's point of view, as I can shift my whole perspective and look at it the way they do. I have had many of an AHA! moment because of this. It also is a pain-in-the-ass.
I waffle a lot..too many choices. I say it doesn't matter and for a part of me it really doesn't. What the other part feels about it. Oh hell. I hope I am not freaking anyone out here to much. Crazy is as crazy does. I have convinced myself of the truth of some pretty bizarre things. Sometimes, I was completely and utterly wrong, at other times, wow!
The problem with being an Fb addict and a stalker.. (besides how embarrassing!) is the fact that I can then ignore reality completely for awhile. My "real" life is somewhat boring and almost always lonely. I love my fb friends. The bonus is that the obsession with my first guy i stalked is over. I check up on him, send an occasional message but...LOl. That's it. He has his good moments, and his own life..but the thrill for me is over. He's just a friend, besides having "fuck me eyes" and knowing a few too many things about me... nope, nada. I have another one now and a few more, and am trying to figure out what to do about it.
The "thrill" and all feels good. Too easy and too habit-forming..so I know it is wrong. I haven't crossed any lines with him or without him or with any of the others, either. That thin thin line..between just joking and serious intent. I can feel it there. I want to hop on over...and know better. So, I flirt with it.
My hubby and me have had a few discussions about all of this. One step at a time..he is willing to help, listen and learn. There are reasons I married him. Yep..still in love. He has almost quit smoking, last time it was a 10 year stretch. Facing his drinking? I wish he would accept help..is this a "typical" man thing? I am happy that he is thinking about it at least.
Working in a restaurant, we all flirted. I was one of the more crazy ones. You flirted with your customer's too. Nothing serious, and the Back-of-the-House was more of a tension release. People did hook up and see each other. I was never really tempted by anyone. They were all too young or not crazy enough..or(LOL) whatever and I was married/with Mark. It was safe, fun, outrageous..:-) Miss it.
My therapist? LOLOL..hates Face book. His "goal" is to get me to quit altogether, my "goal" is to get control and hmm..we have talked about it and will continue to do so. He insists that you can't have any kind of meaningful relationship with anyone electronically. I disagree. My friends mean so much to me.
My level? I am not sure today..I use my face book friends to have fun, to offer condolences, to get me to think, to care, to feel. Turning it off to spend time with my kids is a challenge at times. This Saturday, will be my plan day..see how well I can do. Your level..? You know if you have a problem with this. if you have better solutions, please share.
Time to go make some dinner, beef stew tonight and hug at least one of my kids. If they will let me. Have a great day and TTYAL thanks for listening.
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