I was beginning to think I should end this blog. It is difficult to not be able to write whatever I want too. There are still too many folks, past and present that some of my stories could hurt. The truth of it doesn't matter, and whether I tread lightly or blunder through, it isn't right. I am including a quote I found on the internet today. It is beautiful and so appropriate.Since the last time I have written I have been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. This is not a big surprise as the majority of my immediate relatives all have this as well. This has required diet changes and exercise, blood sugar testing, and more prescriptions to help out my liver, and cholesterol levels. I am also supposed to go back for another study test for sleep apnea.
I had dental work done, another pulled back molar and a root canal. My dental insurance is maxed out now for the year. The sleep study is going to be about another $200. I am supposed to schedule a mammogram, and a diabetic eye exam. I still need to take my kids to the eye doctors and all of us could use the help of a dermatologist. My son also needs an orthodontist and a haircut. My husbands last raise did not offset the higher taxes being taken from his check.
We are going to have to start budgeting better and and controlling our impulse buys. Neither me or my hubby are extravagant, I buy almost everything I can with a discount, coupon or rebate. I have no problem accepting or buying secondhand items. Just eliminating soda has helped quite a bit. I have also been trying to cut down on dining out and have been experimenting with different recipes and cooking at home.
Shazbot. LOL. One fire gets put out and a whole 'nother batch starts right up. I did the sleep study, I thought it cost $195. That was our amount after insurance, too bad my personal deductible is a $1000. The test cost about $850 more, which will fulfill my deductible for this year. They want me to do another test. Um, no..no, and no..If I had known how much it was actually going to cost, I would never have done the sleep study.
All the study told me so far is that I am not sleeping well. Duh, I already knew that. Though since eliminating wheat gluten, my snoring has diminished (according to my hubby). That was my idea, not the doctors or anyone else. It really has helped with my new eating plan, the only time I have gotten one of my migraines has been when I slipped up and ate wheat.
I have already lost almost 17 lbs..woot! I am still trying to up my exercise level. Ugh.
I do have to say that Jack, my not-so-evil-dog has been a lifesaver. I have to attend to his needs and in that sense take care of myself and my family. He also gives back so much in love and personality. He is my "forever" puppy.
My son has grown so much, and much like his voice, he goes back and forth between his new "teen" status and being younger and still needing hugs and reassurance. My daughter is more difficult as she continues to draw further and further away from reality. She starts next year in high school in the Autism program there. I am crossing my fingers and praying. It is hard to get her to connect with anything. I understand better the frustration my parents and sister had with me when I was a teen. It is so heartbreaking to watch her not reaching the potential she could be.
I console myself with the thought that it is "her" life as she likes to remind me. I can't force her to change into anything. I do expect a civil mouth and daily hygiene, we are working through that now. There are times she amazes and soars. At other times we crash and burn.
I am not sure how much I will be writing or how often. I am not always sure if this is helping me or an excuse to ramble on, or a bit of both. One step at a time, one day at a time, thank you for listening and for letting me connect. I hope to talk to you all again soon.
