The Big Three-SAD

Sex, Alcohol.and Drugs..the big three. You can be addicted to just about anything. Violence, gambling, risk-taking, exercise, food, work, etc. You get the picture. The first three, yeah..I am a sex addict and also addicted to FB. I wonder lately if I am also addicted to emotional pain. That's a kicker.

My hubby is a drunk. I know it, he knows it. Hell, anyone who has met him for over a day knows it. He won't admit it.. just a  great guy who loves his beer. Whose friends stop by and drink with him or not. He is a functional drunk, never violent and always makes it to work..sober.

It makes him stupid..to me, and the kids.

 Which makes me angry, sad and so many other things. He is not a stupid man, and has a great sense of humor and so many talents. Why? Why do this to yourself, your family, your life??

Addicts have no common sense..none. If they were born with any, or have any they burn it up so they don't have to think. I have my own issues with this..LOL Heaven help me, but damn, this burns.

The biggest heartache is knowing I am helpless. I can't do a thing about it. It is up to him.

I do have choices, I could leave him, give him the ultimatum..me, the kids or the booze. The fear? That he would choose the alcohol now and I just can't live with that response. Shazbot!

So my level is trying to find my next step with this, for me, my marriage and my family. Your level? Look in the mirror and decide what you see inside yourself..good, bad, ugly..work on the ugly first. Bit by bit and move on.. 

Thanks for listening..ttyal..this did help to vent. :-)

 My fine line II will be coming soon...