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Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Let's play a game, shall we?

Have you ever had the feeling, where you are an outside observer of your own life? The past couple of days, I have felt a bit strange, sort of in it, but also on the outside looking in. I was fighting the sensation at first and then just shrugged, laughed, and welcomed it. Especially, today.

My hubby and my girlfriend of 20 years were in town, it is her second visit to my home. We are close and I always think of it as "me casa es su casa". My house/home is yours and vice-versa. It sounds cooler in Spanish. LOL. Silly Americans, we are fascinated by other languages and cultures, but also remain aloof, too. A few phrases here and there makes us feel global. This isn't all Americans..there are international travelers of all kinds and stripes. There is also quite a few who are multi-lingual. But, for the majority of Caucasian/European mutt suburbanites like me..another language, accent, culture is an exotic flavor. Working with a guy from Africa, who knew at least 4 languages, he told me Americans are snobs. LOL.

We are and aren't. I think we don't mean to be, but that is how we appear to the rest of the world at times. I think it is due more to exposure and opportunity. So many of us are sheltered in our own immediate surroundings. Global news is hard to attach a whole lot of meaning to, unless it is especially graphic of some nature. Even news in our own country is easily shrugged off or doesn't make an impact. It doesn't really change much of our day-to day.

We also have the world come to us, which America is the biggest mix of cultures, religions, ethnicity, "classes". We brew our own too, from inner-city ghetto to militant gun groups, Amish farmers, way way too many to list..and each generation stirs it up more. It has been called the great "melting pot", LOL..more like the big dutch oven of diversity. A huge container of hobo stew that isn't mixed up very often, so the flavors just intermingle and sometimes blend, and disagree or shock the senses. Each spoonful tastes completely different. I find it amazing...the world does too.

"On the outside looking in.." but still in my own skin. Today, with my kids and puppy feeling down..we always do when my husband leaves. It is a double whammy with my girlfriend gone too. She is so truly genuine. I smile, love you lady! We all played a board game last night, that she bought us. After some protests and acting out, we all got in to it and had a blast. Thank you so much, Ms. Mindy, it was a wonderful family night that we will all remember for years to come. The smile and joy of your entire visit help counter the loss of your presence.That was just one highlight among so many. The distancing I am feeling really is helping me keep my emotions under control, and handle my kids as well. Jack the puppy is so forlorn.

The only real regret is I didn't get a picture of all of us. I have to get up, motivated. Had my intake of coffee, time to shower, dress, clean a bit, fold laundry(ugh, maybe) as I have physical therapy to go to today for my shoulder/ neck. It feels so much better. I visit an Ob/gyn tomorrow to talk about possible surgical options, and my therapist the day after that. I also have other appointments and chores to get to..mmhhhmm.

The sun is blasting today, 112/79 degrees F forecast...whew! We will all be inside till it cools down a bit in the evening. Hope my words encourage, inspire, or amuse. Trying today to count my blessings, remain positive, and keep this open line going with my kids. Being thankful for what I have, LOL..great FB friends, a hard-working loving hubby, my "real" friends(lol), my kids, house, puppy, use of all my limbs and brain. A sense of humor to laugh at the funny parts and keeping it real.



"Life is too short!!! Live it up, break the rules, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh loudly, have fun, make memories, and never forget or regret anything that once made you smile :)"
posted by my astral "twin"! TY!

TTYAL, thanks for listening.



Friday, June 3, 2011

and the beat goes on..

I have written, just haven't posted much lately. I have an hour to kill before an appointment. I don't know if that will be enough time, but it is what it is.

I have had some very good times the last couple of days. My hubby is home for 14 some days. Unheard of..LOL. I am loving it. There is some adjustment factor getting used to him being here, but wow! It is so wonderful to have somebody to talk to, hold and yes, that too. My stress level just flips around when he is here. It's such a beautiful day.

I think, while I am basking in my good mood, that it is ok. The new meds I am on make it hard to concentrate on worrying. My mind becomes slippery and those kind of thoughts just seem to slither away. Yey, and whether or not the "good" feelings are drug-induced or not. I have to admit..Yahoo. I love this moment and the next. No if, buts, or then about it. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the lizards are sunning. yeah.

Right now, at this second I am happy to be me. I am unique, individual, and still part of the universe. Being human, I can accept mistakes and downtime's are always going to be part of life's equation. But, I refuse to be a cliche, or a number..my voice, while single is being heard. Doors are opening. I have so many many wonderful things. I wish, I wish that with this blog I am sharing the positive with you. Feeling good and being mellow...content in this flash.

I hear my music and while I can't hear the words it is a happy, happy joy, joy dance. Thanks for all your patience and understanding. Thank you to all my friends. I love my friends...for joy, inspiration, reality checks.  Seeing that while, singular and different, each and everyone of us has a purpose. I can only comment on mine.

Love, peace and harmony..at some point we will all find the right pitch and melody. The symphony is already playing. Music, yes music, art, poetry, dance, mathematics, science, God??.

Mhhmm..for me, yes.

Hoping you all have a happy happy joy joy kind of moment. An instant or even longer where no worries intrude and you find the inner peace of your soul and being. it is called happiness and we all fight and struggle for it, knowing it is another emotion. That it doesn't last forever, but it sure is fun while it is here. Thanks for listening, TTYAL..
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