I took an unintentional break, sorry about that. I wrote two different rough drafts that ended up sounding like each other. For the most part is was about all my medical "shite". Enough of that already for now. I know I am tired of all of it and talking/writing about it hasn't made me feel happier. I am alive! I am way healthier than I was a couple of weeks ago. I am much much better than I was a couple of months back and even more so than I was last year at this time. You could even add in the past couple of years before that. I still miss a smoke every once in a while, less and less though. I am still so ecstatic that I am an ex-smoker. Woo-hoo! It still shocks me.
Mentally, physically, spiritually..one step at a time. I am not looking for perfection or to hold myself to anyone else's standards. It is what I am comfortable with and then maybe a bit more. What makes it all work for me, the balance I have talked about before. I am at times going to be teetering one way and then tottering back another. My fulcrum is my inner spirit/soul. It is eternal and growing, and is indestructible. It can be changed, of course, but never destroyed.
What does all that mean? It means I am a work in progress. I am getting to where I am supposed to be going. If I want it to be what I want, I am going to have to make goals. Then, decide on my action plans and work on them daily.
I was appalled that almost none of my jeans fit for my trip to Utah. I knew I had gained weight. Which made me angry and depressed. I recently saw a video of myself. O-M-G! No, I am not comfortable with that. So, I have been cleaning up my diet, and walking with the dog every day. I also need to get my bike out again. Little steps, that can lead to big changes. I am adding 2 veggies to every meal, putting in my healthy snacks again and having one fruit a day..plus my leafy greens. I have done this before. This time, I am going to use the hypnotherapy again. It works very well for me. The harder part is getting my family into the plan.
I am not expecting miracles though I have been praying for them. I pray for my friend's daughter who has cancer and another friends husband. I pray for my special baby A girl who is in my heart and her mom and family. I pray for my friends business and welfare. I pray for a couple of other friends who have had surgery. I also add in my extended family and friends. My friend whose Mom is in the hospital. A friend that went to the ER tonight and another friend who went to the ER a few weeks back. I have friends with kids and family who could use some miracles, I could use some of my own.
My immediate family needs work, but I have such high hopes for it. I think we are in for another challenging year. It is okay. We will make it through. I know this. We will grow and be changed. It will hurt and be painful at times, but it is going to be worth it.
I need to go get some sleep. I got a few projects done today. I am hoping to accomplish a few more tomorrow. Thanks for listening. I have missed you all. Really. I will include some pictures, song or video soon or maybe not as I have more than a few quotes that to me all mesh together.
Laughing out loud, as I do quite a bit, I am still here and ready for a new tomorrow and my next level.
Mentally, physically, spiritually..one step at a time. I am not looking for perfection or to hold myself to anyone else's standards. It is what I am comfortable with and then maybe a bit more. What makes it all work for me, the balance I have talked about before. I am at times going to be teetering one way and then tottering back another. My fulcrum is my inner spirit/soul. It is eternal and growing, and is indestructible. It can be changed, of course, but never destroyed.
What does all that mean? It means I am a work in progress. I am getting to where I am supposed to be going. If I want it to be what I want, I am going to have to make goals. Then, decide on my action plans and work on them daily.
I was appalled that almost none of my jeans fit for my trip to Utah. I knew I had gained weight. Which made me angry and depressed. I recently saw a video of myself. O-M-G! No, I am not comfortable with that. So, I have been cleaning up my diet, and walking with the dog every day. I also need to get my bike out again. Little steps, that can lead to big changes. I am adding 2 veggies to every meal, putting in my healthy snacks again and having one fruit a day..plus my leafy greens. I have done this before. This time, I am going to use the hypnotherapy again. It works very well for me. The harder part is getting my family into the plan.
I am not expecting miracles though I have been praying for them. I pray for my friend's daughter who has cancer and another friends husband. I pray for my special baby A girl who is in my heart and her mom and family. I pray for my friends business and welfare. I pray for a couple of other friends who have had surgery. I also add in my extended family and friends. My friend whose Mom is in the hospital. A friend that went to the ER tonight and another friend who went to the ER a few weeks back. I have friends with kids and family who could use some miracles, I could use some of my own.
My immediate family needs work, but I have such high hopes for it. I think we are in for another challenging year. It is okay. We will make it through. I know this. We will grow and be changed. It will hurt and be painful at times, but it is going to be worth it.
I need to go get some sleep. I got a few projects done today. I am hoping to accomplish a few more tomorrow. Thanks for listening. I have missed you all. Really. I will include some pictures, song or video soon or maybe not as I have more than a few quotes that to me all mesh together.
“I believe all joy is an extension of gratitude. If we can find something to be thankful for, no matter what’s going on, no matter how small, we can grasp the coattails of joy.”
“As long as you make an identity for yourself out of pain, you cannot be free of it.” ~ Eckhart Tolle
"Those who do not have power over the story that dominates their lives, power to retell it, to rethink it, deconstruct it, joke about it, and change it as times change, truly are powerless, because they cannot think new thoughts." ~Salmon Rushdie
scary, isn't it?
Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything ~George Bernard Shaw
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place. - Unknown
Laughing out loud, as I do quite a bit, I am still here and ready for a new tomorrow and my next level.
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