beautiful loser

These two following quotes go together for me. How many people can look inside themselves, truly see their faults and not feel at least a twinge of something? Only those who have attained peace or enlightenment and those who feel nothing or accept their evil completely. Most of us fall somewhere in between, and at different levels, and at different times in our lives..

"There is a beauty in all my imperfections. He made me see that."

From the movie Crazy Beautiful

If you look into your own heart, and you find nothing wrong there, what is there to worry about? What is there to fear -Confucious

Hmm..children, the younger they are..see nothing wrong at all. That's why they are so sweet and can be so naughty. We teach them guilt, along with compassion. Hopefully, a few other things as well. LOL.

Wow, it has been a long day already. My hubby left this morning back to work and Utah. It was a good visit for the most part and he will be back on his way in three days. A "visit", that where it is so wrong. He really doesn't live here. I'd really like for him to be able to move back home. My girlfriend will be visiting for three days after that, I am so excited. She is a forever friend, one of the select few that I am very close to, but don't see very often anymore. My brother visits the following week-end. We have only seen each other so rarely. The connection is always there, though. I am excited about that as well.

Last night I had a friend who I've been trying to help, help me. What can you say to that? Thank you Lord? Pretty much sums it up. Another friend, who my heart aches for, has seen too much death  these past few years. Another who is being given a second chance to re-build a life with hope, instead of despair. Actually these statements apply to more than one friend. I have specific people in mind, but other friends fall into the same situation. They even apply in more than a couple of instances. A special few, again, have had all three. They have helped me, they have faced the death of too many loved ones and they are being given a second chance or have already taken it.

They all inspire me, make me laugh, cry, think, and jump for joy.

My level is that I hope I can inspire others as well. For the next level is to improve on that..to be able to accept my imperfections and see the beauty. This is so I can look inside myself and find nothing wrong. Not perfection, but truth. No worry, no fear... at least for a moment. Sounds pretty good to me.
Thanks for reading..ttyal.