The new news is that we will be leaving the desert and moving to Utah. Mark is accepting a permanent position there. They have already agreed to pay moving expenses and fly me and the kids out for a visit. I think this is a good move on our part. A healthy step for our whole little family. Jack, the puppy is going to freeze. LOL, he shivers at 70F and has never been out of AZ.
Mark still works for the same company so none of the benefits, or insurance change. At most he will be an hour away, and barring overtime and an occasional trip, will be home every day. Wow! What a concept. We have decided so far to keep the kids here till the end of the school year, so we will be moving sometime in Spring/ Summer. The hard part, except for moving again is the housing market. We can't afford to sell right now. The house is so depreciated. So we are looking into renting it, and then renting in Utah also, maybe. All up in the air with that for now.
I am going to miss things about Arizona, my neighbors and the few wonderful friends I did manage to make, my ladies group. I will miss the winters where below freezing is considered an outrage and there is no snow or frost. I will miss my pool and walking around in shorts, tank tops and sandals. I'll miss my wild lizards. I'll miss a few of my plants that flower year-round. I'll miss my kitchen.
Everything else? No.
The unending sunshine, the heat, the dust, and glare..and being trapped on the edge of nowhere. Broke, without anywhere to go and nobody to do with it. I do not like being a housewife or the 24-7 parent without any breaks. I need a real job, and my own spending money.
We will be in a way smaller house, living more in town, close to a major city. Don't know where yet, but trying to get excited. My hubby home every night? Wow. I could get used to that, it has been years and years.
I saw the doctor last week, and will be telling her this week that I am ready for a hysterectomy. That will be sometime in November. I hoping it makes me feel better, fingers crossed. I am so sick and tired of being so sick and tired. LOL, I actually read a book with that title, it didn't help.
I need to go to my kid's parent/teacher conferences tomorrow. They both did very poorly this quarter. Renee, still and Max, hmm. I think so much of it has had to do with my drama's. I need to change my focus on them a bit. *sigh. I am so not happy about that idea. School is full of so much crap now-a-days. I am sorry, but it is true. Not that my kids can't figure out how to make it work for them..hmm. idk
I have been trying so hard. I just feel lately that I am not getting anywhere. My depression, obsessions, compulsions, the physical, exhaustion, nausea, diarrhoea..have been taking me over. My "real" life is boring and mundane. It involves cleaning, laundry, shopping, cooking, parenting, driving, scheduling..I have been slacking at most of it.
I care, but I don't see the point to it any more. I don't have any visitors, my kids can be very surly and apathetic, my hubby isn't usually here. So, I sit here and Facebook, or blog and check on e-mails. I play solitaire and check coupons. I drink coffee and take my "happy" drugs. I sleep or nap. I pray, laugh, and cry. Sometimes I even watch TV or a movie/netflix with the kids. I feed and treat the dog. (yawn)
Depression, boredom, and physical malaise..whatever. I am making myself tired and sick of myself. LOL My "friend"? Whatever. Good luck and break a leg! You are on to bigger and better things that I can only dream of. What is done is done. I'll miss you, can't help that. My other friends take time to share bits and pieces of theirs. It is more of a true friendship, we share the good and bad. You can't help me, at all. I wish you could, that is where the pain comes from. The hope that isn't real.
The holidays will be my newest goal to get through and accomplish, bringing my kids grades up? Eating healthier, saving money as always. The focus know isn't to try to acclimatize, but to get ready for another move.Wow, weird, change would be good. Thanks for listening to me ramble on.
TTYAL..have a wonderful day, week..and always find something to laugh at daily. Love ya!
Mark still works for the same company so none of the benefits, or insurance change. At most he will be an hour away, and barring overtime and an occasional trip, will be home every day. Wow! What a concept. We have decided so far to keep the kids here till the end of the school year, so we will be moving sometime in Spring/ Summer. The hard part, except for moving again is the housing market. We can't afford to sell right now. The house is so depreciated. So we are looking into renting it, and then renting in Utah also, maybe. All up in the air with that for now.
I am going to miss things about Arizona, my neighbors and the few wonderful friends I did manage to make, my ladies group. I will miss the winters where below freezing is considered an outrage and there is no snow or frost. I will miss my pool and walking around in shorts, tank tops and sandals. I'll miss my wild lizards. I'll miss a few of my plants that flower year-round. I'll miss my kitchen.
Everything else? No.
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We will be in a way smaller house, living more in town, close to a major city. Don't know where yet, but trying to get excited. My hubby home every night? Wow. I could get used to that, it has been years and years.
I saw the doctor last week, and will be telling her this week that I am ready for a hysterectomy. That will be sometime in November. I hoping it makes me feel better, fingers crossed. I am so sick and tired of being so sick and tired. LOL, I actually read a book with that title, it didn't help.
I need to go to my kid's parent/teacher conferences tomorrow. They both did very poorly this quarter. Renee, still and Max, hmm. I think so much of it has had to do with my drama's. I need to change my focus on them a bit. *sigh. I am so not happy about that idea. School is full of so much crap now-a-days. I am sorry, but it is true. Not that my kids can't figure out how to make it work for them..hmm. idk
I have been trying so hard. I just feel lately that I am not getting anywhere. My depression, obsessions, compulsions, the physical, exhaustion, nausea, diarrhoea..have been taking me over. My "real" life is boring and mundane. It involves cleaning, laundry, shopping, cooking, parenting, driving, scheduling..I have been slacking at most of it.
I care, but I don't see the point to it any more. I don't have any visitors, my kids can be very surly and apathetic, my hubby isn't usually here. So, I sit here and Facebook, or blog and check on e-mails. I play solitaire and check coupons. I drink coffee and take my "happy" drugs. I sleep or nap. I pray, laugh, and cry. Sometimes I even watch TV or a movie/netflix with the kids. I feed and treat the dog. (yawn)
Depression, boredom, and physical malaise..whatever. I am making myself tired and sick of myself. LOL My "friend"? Whatever. Good luck and break a leg! You are on to bigger and better things that I can only dream of. What is done is done. I'll miss you, can't help that. My other friends take time to share bits and pieces of theirs. It is more of a true friendship, we share the good and bad. You can't help me, at all. I wish you could, that is where the pain comes from. The hope that isn't real.
The holidays will be my newest goal to get through and accomplish, bringing my kids grades up? Eating healthier, saving money as always. The focus know isn't to try to acclimatize, but to get ready for another move.Wow, weird, change would be good. Thanks for listening to me ramble on.
TTYAL..have a wonderful day, week..and always find something to laugh at daily. Love ya!
