"Going Out of My Head.."

"Since you been gone, been out of my head, can't take it.." the lyrics to a song that keep playing through my head. I HATE summer vacation. Really. I think kids should be in school during the summer too. It isn't like they are helping with the harvest. I really do respect teachers more than I already did. I am at my limit with children today and tomorrow, too.

My hubby comes home in a couple of days. Thank-you! I don't really know what I need a break from, life? I just know I feel very frazzled. It hasn't helped that I was very sick the last couple of days. First was because I ate Mexican food with some dairy two meals in a row. Yep, not a bright idea...after all that the next day I had the migraine from hell. I slept on and off all day and tried not to throw up.

It is hot here and getting hotter. The desert is heating up. It has been over a 100 degrees just about every day. The bonus is it is still cooling down at night. It won't soon, but we will be gone by then. Maybe, if I can get everything packed up and moved and the dog and the kids and bills and money and..lolol. Such fun, to move from one place I don't really want to be (but was starting to get used to) to a new place where I don't want to be, but with the family I want to be with. Okay. I have had waaay too much caffeine today.

I am not sure where I am at this point or what I have been trying to do. Confuzzled..just a bit. I just. I don't know. I would love to feel physically better. I am getting better at returning to anchor myself. I don't want to go off into an emotional abyss or ignore the stuff I feel I need to accomplish. I just..*sigh. I feel that I am getting socially and emotionally healthier. I am coming to peace and balance with  so many issues I have had. I am headed in the right direction.

I just want to yell or scream or throw a tantrum, and run away. I don't want to be a grown-up anymore. I don't want to be a kid either or a teenager..oh no. I need a vacation from everything, especially myself.

I guess we all have these kinds of days..I am better now. At least for a little while...lol.

Righty vs. Lefty

I had one idea that was tripping around inside my head but, I am going to have to save it for a future blog. It was about heaven, and levels and..sorry. I got taken away again by my daughter, she played me her version of a lovely song and then showed me her new art. I noticed a similarity right away to another picture I downloaded a couple of weeks ago.

It is how she views the possible inside of her mind. This is on her art site I will include the link when I find it again.

This is from Ted Talks.. a symposium for different ideas. I am going to try to find the linkage. My daughter hadn't seen this picture. This is from Quantum physics and represents the idea of vibrating slices of string as the template for our universe and others. *Sigh, she does stuff like this. I am going to have to find the original author and artist for this picture. I don't own it and have no rights to it.

The thought I got out of this is "what a strange place I have been."

Thanks for listening, I will talk to you all later. Levels? I am tired but in a good way, hope you all found something amazing in your every day life. Something that has been there all along and you saw differently.
Isn't it amazing!