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It is already late, and I should be asleep. I am not, I had a nap that I really needed. Now, I am awake. As I said in my first blog ever, I am here. I might as well write something.

It was a beautiful day, I got to be lazy. I swam, I Face booked. I tried making brownie waffles. They were very yummy, a bit messy. My kids had their last day of school. My husband was home and we emptied most of the garage into a U-haul for him to take back to Utah. He also got rid of at least 4 boxes of junk, and recycled aluminum cans and had four bags of clothes for Goodwill.

I met the guy who will be renting our house here the day before. Jack loved him, which is a good sign. He seemed really nice.

craters on Mars, courtesy of NASA

I am bored at the same time that some part of me is paralyzed. I am really "nervous" about this move. Or maybe apprehensive is the word. I dread it at the same time I am looking forward to a change. The weather here in Arizona is officially triple digit hot, it will get hotter. As of now it is still cooling down at night. In a couple more weeks it won't cool down at all. I call it hell and am so glad I don't have to endure it again.

I am not looking forward to snow and real grass either. I HATE snow, and grass is green and it grows. It would really help if I wasn't allergic to it. I am looking forward to seeing my new house. I just..

I don't know. Scared? Kind of..I don't like change, even good changes. I get very comfortable in my ruts. LOL. I know I don't want my hubby to leave. He just got here, and I am not sure when I will see him again. It may not be until the end of next month for the big move. *sigh.

I have so much stuff to do. Not a bit of it is fun. Moving bites!

It would be easier if I had less possessions and I was willing to let go of them. I am not a hoarder in the same sense that others are. I still have my mementos though.

Okay, I am whining again.  I am on another prescription medicine. I have to admit I have been getting way more sleep. I have to be very careful about what I eat or don't eat. I spent almost four days with a digestive system that wouldn't work, now I think I am sliding the other direction. Wonderful, and yes.. that is sarcastic.

I actually had a drag of my hubby's menthol cigarette, blchhh. I had to go rinse and spit my mouth out. It killed the desire I had. Whew. I have cravings for things I don't even want. It does help to remember that. My final frontier for now is my weight. ugh.

I need to start thinking like a skinny person. They have energy, enthusiasm and stop eating when they are full. They don't binge eat and eat lots of fruits and veggies and avoid high fat, high sugar foods. Not just because they taste bad but that it makes them feel like a slug. Processed foods are a big no-no and chocolate and other indulgences are rare. Exercise is daily and includes aerobic and cardio..plus resistance training and flexibility..hmm. Okay.

I have been here and done this before, baby steps. Time for some sleep and thanks for listening to me vent. I feel a 100% better, amazing. Prayers for all my friends going through difficult times. Money, health and family issues...I hope things turn out the best for you all.

TTYL..shhh. Don't miss your boat..(The Ledo shuffle by Boz Scaggs) ..