Have you ever driven a stick-shift car? I learned on one, it wasn't easy. I haven't had to drive one for a large number of years. I think I would still remember, though I probably wouldn't be very smooth. I did have a tendency to "ride the clutch". I hated downshifting, and stopping on hills. Actually starting on hills was more of the problem. I always thought driving in San Francisco would be horrific. I did have real nightmares as a teen about this.
I failed my driver's license the first time, I completely panicked during parallel parking and stalled twice. On the second test, I didn't even try. I offered the textbook instructions verbatim and the examiner accepted it. I still can't parallel park any type of vehicle. My Chicago city friends always thought this was hysterical, especially as I drove an old Volkswagen Beetle compared to their boats. At my kids' school in Wisconsin, I would go around the block and around the block and.. to avoid it. My husband still finds it less than amusing.
I have been in a few fender bender's. At least three of them, I was in reverse, and hit a parked vehicle behind me. It is so not my best talent. I hit my Mom's school bus once, I was mortally embarrassed. I was legally blind then without my glasses or contacts, and have terrible depth perception. My eyesight is 20/20 now thanks to Lasik, but my problems still remain with blind spots, parking, and backing up. I don't think that is going to change. I pray a lot and try to remember to check these things. A couple of my past accidents were under the influence of something, I am now a grown-up.
I have a massive headache right now. I tried starting a 3-day no sugar challenge. I made it until noon and broke down and ate chocolate AND had a soda tonight. I also had my physical therapy for my neck and shoulder. It is so much better. I am still whining. I have so little patience, I want it to be a 100% already. Considering it has been a problem for at least the last six years, I really am expecting too much. I haven't been exercising. No walks, no bike rides for a week, *sigh. I know. It is not going to get better until I make it better.
I feel like I am talking all stilted here and am not sure why? I guess the part that bothers me is now I have met multiple people in person who have actually read this. It makes it different for me. I realized I also hurt a very special lady with the initials (S.C.) with my comments. I feel awful about this. I am thinking of sending her an e-mail of apology. I am hoping she forgives me. I think her, her hubby, friends are all incredible just the way they are.
So many things in my life are on hold right now, waiting. Other things seem to be a very tedious process, daily actions that lead to bigger rewards, but crap. See above, patience is not one of my better qualities. It is hard to change and make it permanent. If it was easier or simpler, nobody would be overweight, or have any addictions. We'd all be so healthy it would be revolting. I am laughing.
Stuck in idle is when you can't seem to get into gear. That is where I have been this past week, not just stuck in mud spinning my wheels. Worse, I am revving up my engine and making big sounds, but I am not going anywhere. I have gone back to playing mammoth computer solitaire. It keeps my mind numb and keeps me off Facebook for awhile and hidden from my other obsessions. It is not a permanent solution, not even a good one. I am facing the mirror, and would love to throw a rock at it.
My kids are off school for Spring break, I want to go somewhere and do something. I want to have fun. Next week I see my therapist and do more physical therapy and work on my chores. Flargh, that is a choking sound. I am trying to be a better parent but realize, I can't help my kids with their issues if I can't tackle my own. OKAY.
Facts are, we are going to move. Somehow, somewhere..so we can be together as a family. Right now my children are so, so, don't even know the word. I am going to go get my day rolling as it is and work on what makes me content. I am not going to react emotionally, or over re-act and drive myself mental. I am saying this mantra to myself. I am hoping it starts working, soon. If my kids don't want to co-operate than their loss. My level? I have to find the right gear to go forward. I have been on a hill, sloping backwards and I am done with that.
Thanks for listening as always, you are all the best. You really are.
"Remember "rotate" and "revolve" from grade school? The Earth rotates around its axis and revolves around the sun. I have heard now that the sun moves within our universe and that the universes pivots around the galaxies at some center point and the galaxies whirl around too, somehow. If you go sub-molecular, everything has its own way of moving around.. ..no wonder I am so friggin' dizzy." LLTschudi
love ya and ttyal.
I failed my driver's license the first time, I completely panicked during parallel parking and stalled twice. On the second test, I didn't even try. I offered the textbook instructions verbatim and the examiner accepted it. I still can't parallel park any type of vehicle. My Chicago city friends always thought this was hysterical, especially as I drove an old Volkswagen Beetle compared to their boats. At my kids' school in Wisconsin, I would go around the block and around the block and.. to avoid it. My husband still finds it less than amusing.
I have been in a few fender bender's. At least three of them, I was in reverse, and hit a parked vehicle behind me. It is so not my best talent. I hit my Mom's school bus once, I was mortally embarrassed. I was legally blind then without my glasses or contacts, and have terrible depth perception. My eyesight is 20/20 now thanks to Lasik, but my problems still remain with blind spots, parking, and backing up. I don't think that is going to change. I pray a lot and try to remember to check these things. A couple of my past accidents were under the influence of something, I am now a grown-up.
I have a massive headache right now. I tried starting a 3-day no sugar challenge. I made it until noon and broke down and ate chocolate AND had a soda tonight. I also had my physical therapy for my neck and shoulder. It is so much better. I am still whining. I have so little patience, I want it to be a 100% already. Considering it has been a problem for at least the last six years, I really am expecting too much. I haven't been exercising. No walks, no bike rides for a week, *sigh. I know. It is not going to get better until I make it better.
I feel like I am talking all stilted here and am not sure why? I guess the part that bothers me is now I have met multiple people in person who have actually read this. It makes it different for me. I realized I also hurt a very special lady with the initials (S.C.) with my comments. I feel awful about this. I am thinking of sending her an e-mail of apology. I am hoping she forgives me. I think her, her hubby, friends are all incredible just the way they are.
So many things in my life are on hold right now, waiting. Other things seem to be a very tedious process, daily actions that lead to bigger rewards, but crap. See above, patience is not one of my better qualities. It is hard to change and make it permanent. If it was easier or simpler, nobody would be overweight, or have any addictions. We'd all be so healthy it would be revolting. I am laughing.
Stuck in idle is when you can't seem to get into gear. That is where I have been this past week, not just stuck in mud spinning my wheels. Worse, I am revving up my engine and making big sounds, but I am not going anywhere. I have gone back to playing mammoth computer solitaire. It keeps my mind numb and keeps me off Facebook for awhile and hidden from my other obsessions. It is not a permanent solution, not even a good one. I am facing the mirror, and would love to throw a rock at it.
My kids are off school for Spring break, I want to go somewhere and do something. I want to have fun. Next week I see my therapist and do more physical therapy and work on my chores. Flargh, that is a choking sound. I am trying to be a better parent but realize, I can't help my kids with their issues if I can't tackle my own. OKAY.
Facts are, we are going to move. Somehow, somewhere..so we can be together as a family. Right now my children are so, so, don't even know the word. I am going to go get my day rolling as it is and work on what makes me content. I am not going to react emotionally, or over re-act and drive myself mental. I am saying this mantra to myself. I am hoping it starts working, soon. If my kids don't want to co-operate than their loss. My level? I have to find the right gear to go forward. I have been on a hill, sloping backwards and I am done with that.
Thanks for listening as always, you are all the best. You really are.
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"Remember "rotate" and "revolve" from grade school? The Earth rotates around its axis and revolves around the sun. I have heard now that the sun moves within our universe and that the universes pivots around the galaxies at some center point and the galaxies whirl around too, somehow. If you go sub-molecular, everything has its own way of moving around.. ..no wonder I am so friggin' dizzy." LLTschudi
love ya and ttyal.
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