Back home, didn't realize how much I missed it till I was gone. The temperature here dropped while we were away. I actually wore long pants and a sweatshirt. I have plenty of things to do, just getting around to them slowly. I have been on Facebook almost all day yesterday and today. I don't like the new side ticker. It annoys me. Oh well, it is still free. It is nice to catch up with folks again.
I found it so strange that while I was in Utah, I really didn't have the compulsion to check it. I was in the moment with my kids and hubby for the most part. We had a really good time. I am so smiling. Not everything was perfect, I packed too much as usual..lol. The kids did get whiny and bored at times. We spent way too much money, that we really don't have. *Sigh, credit cards.. I figured out I hate airports, security and flying. It stresses me out. Still beats driving though. Despite all that we all had fun...it made me appreciate my family again. I do love them all.
My kids have been beyond surly since coming home. They are not happy being back in Arizona, being with me or going to school. I can't say I am liking them all that much either. Ugh. Jack, the puppy has been in major sleepy mode. I don't think he's sick, just worn out. My neighbor had her new dog Maverick over while we were gone and Jack and him played. She said they ran around so much it was wild. He went crazy when we first came in. He was literally crying, leaping, shaking, and wagging. He has taken over my lap just about any chance he can get now. I missed him too. When a dog cries and tries to jump in your arms..wow. My little black puppy, I do love him. Even though he still does stink.
The kids get upset that he loves me the most. He was supposed to be Renee's dog. She didn't take care of him. So, I did. She accuses me every once in a while for stealing her dog. Yeah, I did. He does love her too. She gets goofy with him, though..hard to explain. Some good, some bad. Max, my son drives me nuts with him. He constantly picks him up and makes Jack growl. Jack loves him too, but will hide from Max, too. I can't blame him for that. I wish I could hide away at times too. I do growl at times. LOL.
What is the point to all this chit-chat today? I don't know. I am feeling lonely and not depressed so much, but not happy either. I have very mixed emotions about moving. Utah is one of the last places I would have considered moving too. I have lived there before in Provo/Orem. Yes, I went to BYU for one term and then got kicked out, for past "sins" before I ever arrived. Oh, and telling the truth. What a crock of shite, that was. I did have beautiful roomies though. Some of the sweetest girls I have ever met. I apologize to all the roomies I had after that, in Utah and at DeVry. I was a bitch, a thief, liar..addict, user..you name it. Some of my roomies were too. Others were really sweet and didn't deserve the shit they put up with. Sorry.
Choices, we all have choices. At least I have, for the most part. BYU was one..moving back to Utah is going to be another. I have managed to avoid Mormons for the most part, except for here in Queen creek. It is a very large Mormon area. Most of them are sweet, but it makes me uncomfortable. Church people of any type do after awhile. It isn't them, it is me. Bad memories, and dealing with emotions and troubles...I believe in God. I have discussed that before. I also respect others right to worship however they want. The sad part is that it isn't the other way around too often. They don't know how (hmmm? I can't think of the right word) they can be.
Plus, there is snow and cold. I don't know if that beats hell heat, sun and dust. Right now, I am waiting to see how much money the hubby says we have. We or I may go out for dinner anyway. I need to get out. The kids are going to be home soon. I wish my happy pills had made me happier today. Nope. Taking a shower would be a step towards getting motivated. I dusted the whole downstairs..whoop! I just wish for more/less today. I am thankful for being alive. I am also very thankful I don't have snow. Most of my Mid-west and Northern friends/readers will cuss here.
I feel right now this should be the scene where something dramatic happens. I would have somebody shaking me...WAKE-UP! SNAP OUT OF IT! or a plane would crash land on my house or something would blow-up. It isn't happening and I don't want that happening. But, I really would like something besides what I have. The real life part of that is I am going to have to get up and go get it myself. Not a plane crash, but something accomplished. Okay, enough for today. Thanks for listening to my blahs. I really hope your levels are higher than mine today, or at least not as dim.
True..TTYAL..have a great day/week. It helps me to know you are all out there. It makes me feel less of a whatever, sort of mumbling to myself..HATE that, so thank you, truly. You make me smile inside and outside. I prefer that feeling to just about anything.
I found it so strange that while I was in Utah, I really didn't have the compulsion to check it. I was in the moment with my kids and hubby for the most part. We had a really good time. I am so smiling. Not everything was perfect, I packed too much as usual..lol. The kids did get whiny and bored at times. We spent way too much money, that we really don't have. *Sigh, credit cards.. I figured out I hate airports, security and flying. It stresses me out. Still beats driving though. Despite all that we all had fun...it made me appreciate my family again. I do love them all.
My kids have been beyond surly since coming home. They are not happy being back in Arizona, being with me or going to school. I can't say I am liking them all that much either. Ugh. Jack, the puppy has been in major sleepy mode. I don't think he's sick, just worn out. My neighbor had her new dog Maverick over while we were gone and Jack and him played. She said they ran around so much it was wild. He went crazy when we first came in. He was literally crying, leaping, shaking, and wagging. He has taken over my lap just about any chance he can get now. I missed him too. When a dog cries and tries to jump in your arms..wow. My little black puppy, I do love him. Even though he still does stink.
The kids get upset that he loves me the most. He was supposed to be Renee's dog. She didn't take care of him. So, I did. She accuses me every once in a while for stealing her dog. Yeah, I did. He does love her too. She gets goofy with him, though..hard to explain. Some good, some bad. Max, my son drives me nuts with him. He constantly picks him up and makes Jack growl. Jack loves him too, but will hide from Max, too. I can't blame him for that. I wish I could hide away at times too. I do growl at times. LOL.
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| Utah, at the hotel..the pic is from 2010, hasn't changed. |
Choices, we all have choices. At least I have, for the most part. BYU was one..moving back to Utah is going to be another. I have managed to avoid Mormons for the most part, except for here in Queen creek. It is a very large Mormon area. Most of them are sweet, but it makes me uncomfortable. Church people of any type do after awhile. It isn't them, it is me. Bad memories, and dealing with emotions and troubles...I believe in God. I have discussed that before. I also respect others right to worship however they want. The sad part is that it isn't the other way around too often. They don't know how (hmmm? I can't think of the right word) they can be.
Plus, there is snow and cold. I don't know if that beats hell heat, sun and dust. Right now, I am waiting to see how much money the hubby says we have. We or I may go out for dinner anyway. I need to get out. The kids are going to be home soon. I wish my happy pills had made me happier today. Nope. Taking a shower would be a step towards getting motivated. I dusted the whole downstairs..whoop! I just wish for more/less today. I am thankful for being alive. I am also very thankful I don't have snow. Most of my Mid-west and Northern friends/readers will cuss here.
I feel right now this should be the scene where something dramatic happens. I would have somebody shaking me...WAKE-UP! SNAP OUT OF IT! or a plane would crash land on my house or something would blow-up. It isn't happening and I don't want that happening. But, I really would like something besides what I have. The real life part of that is I am going to have to get up and go get it myself. Not a plane crash, but something accomplished. Okay, enough for today. Thanks for listening to my blahs. I really hope your levels are higher than mine today, or at least not as dim.
"Sometimes the most ordinary things could be made extraordinary, simply by doing them with the right people."
True..TTYAL..have a great day/week. It helps me to know you are all out there. It makes me feel less of a whatever, sort of mumbling to myself..HATE that, so thank you, truly. You make me smile inside and outside. I prefer that feeling to just about anything.
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