I just read through two of my previous days ramblings, when I am saying...no, really? by the end of it you got to know it is a no-go. Not so much as crazy, but yawn. This really isn't all about me and what I did 300 years ago or even in the past couple of minute. Okay, yes it is, but it doesn't have to be so boring. I hope. Please feel free to chuckle or laugh here..
I am doing better with my "person" addiction. I really don't have much of a choice. It really really bothers me at certain moments. I am still praying a lot on that one. I feel like a friend has died, and nobody knows it but me. I wish they could have said good-bye. I wish they had loved me. There are so many reasons why the block is in effect and has to remain that way. Shite, sorry I am mucking through all this again. It still hurts. I guess it always will. It wasn't equal, I wanted everything and settled for whatever. Oh, hell, that just gave me another insight that I am not sharing. Hearing that one loud and clear. Enough for now. Really.
Physical therapy was difficult today,though my exercises are very easy. I mostly get my head, neck and shoulders massaged a lot. Then I have very simple motion things I do with my head. The hardest one is being in a doorway with my hands holding the frame. I step in and step out, alternating each time. Three sets, three minutes each...by the third set my shoulders shake and hurt. Crap. It is getting better though, I have the use of my right arm again, it will stiffen up during the week and I will go back. *sigh, I feel really bad for all the other people. One lady today, wow! She wasn't boring or shy but umm..I am glad I share globally..not face-to-face or to the whole room. TMI!
One step at a time, one day at a time..I have projects tomorrow and I hope I can get some accomplished before I run out of energy. I did schedule an appointment next week with the OB-GYN..surgery, I guess. I don't want to, I am scared a bit. Not so much of going through the pain and all that crap, but that it won't really solve anything...or make things worse. My hubby is the one really pushing for this one. He's tired of me being on my period 24/7 pretty much. But, ( insert swear words..take your pick) ugh.
It has cooled down considerably today and for the rest of the week. I finally have my A/C off, first time since March. It was one helluva hot summer. "dry heat" F**K that..anything over a 100F degrees is ridiculous. I just love burning my hands while trying to drive a car that has been in the sun for a few.(That is sarcasm by the way) I do love my pool, though.
My life..lol. Do you know those merry-go round things they have in children's parks? Or used to, they were dangerous so somebody probably banned them. I loved those things. I would get it going and hop on, or my sister would. My brothers were evil and tried their hardest to scare us or make us sick..never worked. I loved it. I loved running them for other kids too, scared a group of them one time and felt bad. Sorry kiddos.
I feel like that is what I have been on lately, fast then slow. Am I the one pushing it around or is someone else? Yes, I am getting dizzy and nauseous at times, scared too..but I refuse to get off. My ride, my fun..hah. It is way more of a blast with friends along, I so smile here. I have met such a good bunch.
Decisions, responsibilities, love...I need love, want love..doesn't everyone? I have to give it out too, but the bonus with that it is that it grows and becomes better the more it is passed around. I am being given kisses by Jack the puppy before he gets comfy on my lap. Silly dog.
Levels, today... I just kind of coasted along. I hope I can amp that up a bit tomorrow. I am hoping that whatever point you are at in your lives you look around. Is everything spinning out of control? Or is nothing moving at all? You can get yourself going or have somebody help, and also come with you...the ride doesn't last forever. You are going to have to go home sometime, but wow.
Thanks for listening to me as always..TTYAL.
(this was posted and shared on my wall and other's yesterday..yes.)
I am doing better with my "person" addiction. I really don't have much of a choice. It really really bothers me at certain moments. I am still praying a lot on that one. I feel like a friend has died, and nobody knows it but me. I wish they could have said good-bye. I wish they had loved me. There are so many reasons why the block is in effect and has to remain that way. Shite, sorry I am mucking through all this again. It still hurts. I guess it always will. It wasn't equal, I wanted everything and settled for whatever. Oh, hell, that just gave me another insight that I am not sharing. Hearing that one loud and clear. Enough for now. Really.
Physical therapy was difficult today,though my exercises are very easy. I mostly get my head, neck and shoulders massaged a lot. Then I have very simple motion things I do with my head. The hardest one is being in a doorway with my hands holding the frame. I step in and step out, alternating each time. Three sets, three minutes each...by the third set my shoulders shake and hurt. Crap. It is getting better though, I have the use of my right arm again, it will stiffen up during the week and I will go back. *sigh, I feel really bad for all the other people. One lady today, wow! She wasn't boring or shy but umm..I am glad I share globally..not face-to-face or to the whole room. TMI!
One step at a time, one day at a time..I have projects tomorrow and I hope I can get some accomplished before I run out of energy. I did schedule an appointment next week with the OB-GYN..surgery, I guess. I don't want to, I am scared a bit. Not so much of going through the pain and all that crap, but that it won't really solve anything...or make things worse. My hubby is the one really pushing for this one. He's tired of me being on my period 24/7 pretty much. But, ( insert swear words..take your pick) ugh.
It has cooled down considerably today and for the rest of the week. I finally have my A/C off, first time since March. It was one helluva hot summer. "dry heat" F**K that..anything over a 100F degrees is ridiculous. I just love burning my hands while trying to drive a car that has been in the sun for a few.(That is sarcasm by the way) I do love my pool, though.
My life..lol. Do you know those merry-go round things they have in children's parks? Or used to, they were dangerous so somebody probably banned them. I loved those things. I would get it going and hop on, or my sister would. My brothers were evil and tried their hardest to scare us or make us sick..never worked. I loved it. I loved running them for other kids too, scared a group of them one time and felt bad. Sorry kiddos.
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| This is the sun setting at the North pole..I have no rights to this pic, but wow, again. Thanks Lord! |
Decisions, responsibilities, love...I need love, want love..doesn't everyone? I have to give it out too, but the bonus with that it is that it grows and becomes better the more it is passed around. I am being given kisses by Jack the puppy before he gets comfy on my lap. Silly dog.
Levels, today... I just kind of coasted along. I hope I can amp that up a bit tomorrow. I am hoping that whatever point you are at in your lives you look around. Is everything spinning out of control? Or is nothing moving at all? You can get yourself going or have somebody help, and also come with you...the ride doesn't last forever. You are going to have to go home sometime, but wow.
Thanks for listening to me as always..TTYAL.
(this was posted and shared on my wall and other's yesterday..yes.)
