Spring has ..

My kids are on Easter break, or Spring break whatever you want to call it. It is one of my least favorite holidays. The only really good part of it is chocolate, which I have to be very careful about. I used to hate eggs, cooked any kind of way. My sister would always insist on dying some. I would then be forced into eating them at some point.
Hard-boiled is still not my favorite.

We never ever got an Easter basket full of anything that I can remember. We always spent that Sunday at church and then would go to one of my aunt's house. This was always extremely boring for a kid. My relatives were sweet, but thought all of us were strange. Which we were, we didn't actually fit in anywhere. Since it was a Sabbath day even if the weather was nice we weren't allowed to go play. We were dressed in our church clothes, mostly all we did was watch the tv and eat. My cousins always had on Moses and the Ten Commandments with Yul Bryner. I never understood why really. We also took any chocolate we could find out of our cousin's baskets which I am sure now they weren't probably too happy about.

I spent Easter this year with friends, most of whom I have just recently met. It was sweet. One of the ladies had invested in colored plastic eggs and candy and had made up almost 200 eggs. All of the adults went around outside hiding them and then the three kids went to go search. It was fun. We had great food, friends, family, games and laughter. I think this is how every holiday should be.

tree buds..Spring!

My kids go back to school tomorrow which I am grateful for. I have been on a very thin edge of frustration lately. I was watching a tv show for about a month, maybe. I was streaming it from Netflix which drove my family nuts as I was using the majority of the bandwidth. Ha! I realize it is an addictive obsession, as I watched episode after episode with no breaks or ads. It is a way for me to be here but not. It is also much easier on your liver and doesn't add calories.

The problem is the same as any addiction. It takes over everything else. I neglect any chores to the barest minimum, don't sleep much and don't exercise. I also get "tetchy" when interrupted.

I have been doing so well with my food choices, until I got the results back from my recent labs. My blood sugar is still running way too high on average. This put me into an unintentional slump. I ate chocolate and had wheat(pancakes) and haven't tested since then. I know. I know. I will get back to it.

I haven't mentioned levels in quite a while. For the most part since I really haven't been actively doing anything really positive or life-affirming. I have been wallowing a bit, and I know it. Blah.

"Forgiveness" the concept, keeps popping up in all sorts of places over and over. I get it Karma fairy! I need to let go of perceived wrongs against myself and of those I feel I rendered to others. I need to give myself a break and let myself off the hook. It is okay that I have made mistakes and screwed up. It is also okay that I will keep on making mistakes and screwing up, I am human. I am just striving to make better choices for me, and not repeat the same errors.

Thanks for listening I will ttyal. I am including the song from the tv show I was watching. Love this song now...I had never seen the show before.


I guess the song doesn't show where Youtube doesn't let it. That's fine, I don't have permission to use it. The song is 'Empire of my Mind" by the Wallflowers and the show was The Guardian.