another one bites the dust

Well, another day done, almost. I have a pumpkin pie cooling. It is too hot to put in the fridge yet. But, I can't leave it out all night either. No, it isn't home-made, home-baked from frozen..pies are one of my favorite treats. I leave making them to the pro's. My pies are good, but it is so not worth the hassle. I may have already mentioned my Grandma ruined me, she made the best apple pie ever. No lie, I have done extensive research over the years...a few were close. No, not really.

Abby is doing great last I heard. She is healing up from her operation and will start the formula soon. Then, fingers crossed, she gets to go home for the first time ever. I am so excited for her and her family. She's not only fought so hard this far, she is improving. Thanks for any and all prayers and well-wishes. I had the date wrong, not surprising, but God knows who she is and what she needed.

I didn't go swimming today or yesterday and it irks me. It has been cooler in the morning and I got lazy. I have been yo-yoing with PMS or I don't even know what. Up, down, turn around..and see that it isn't doing me any good. My friend tells me the key is progress, not perfection. I usually learn more from my mistakes than my successes, but that gets old very quick. It is so nice to win, sometimes. First shot, first try, Whammo! Ongoing processes really are work.

I was re-reading some blogs. Wow, I am a positive person. I am laughing, quirky though. My first blog was about being stuck in the deset suburb with my kids, puppy and a hubby that works too far away. None of that has changed. I am still a Facebook addict. mmhmm. I still smoke *sigh. I see a hypnotherapist Tuesday. I am uber-excited. E-cigs did not do well for me.

I will talk about my medical mayhem in a minute. What has changed from blog one? My friend did  re-friend me and he has helped me a lot. I no longer stalk him. I have even more friends that make my day. I try to return the favor. My friends are funny, smart, complex, and so much more. They give me hope.

I got the results back from my CT, I have two more hernias, plus my recurrent one. My original hernia needs repair, it had stuck to my abdomen wall and to the mesh. They need to open it up and hope for the best, it may be stuck to my intestines as well. which means resecting the bowel. The other problem was a very small nodule on my adrenal glands. Finally a result that means something. This would explain my blood pressure issues and a whole slew of other symptoms I have been battling for years.

I am back for more tests, still a Zebra. I am keeping an open mind. They either find something or they don't. I am poorer but no worse off. The bottom line is I can't go back to serving. My feet, my hands, my hernia and my shoulder/neck. The years took their toll. I do need to find a way to make an income. So many bills..:(

I have a few more things to say but, getting tired now. Sleep, than morning pie and a cup of joe. Yes, to the little hummingbird that cheered me up yesterday, thanks.

Life moves on whether we are ready willing and able, next step, next level..the possibilities boggle the mind. I hope this helps someone else now. We all have problems and issues. Face them and keep progressing. thanks for listening, ttyal.