I spent the night watching the movie Despicable Me with my kids. Jack spent most of his time trying to steal popcorn. LOL, it was a good time, Renee had some difficulties but came back and joined us. Her Asperger's makes her backwards sometimes. She wants to be a part of the social, but it stresses her out too. She played music, and got her calm back. Max had a meltdown after. It has been so hard on him, on us all with the move to AZ. It has now been 2 years, he has made many new friends..good ones. Did really well with school, and is nervous about middle school next year. Tonight, he missed his old friend Chris. It is hard. He knew him since he was 4. I miss him too, he was always over.. the 2 of them playing. I used to call him my other son.
I told Max tonight that every time we make a friend we give them a piece of our "soul" and they give us a piece back. Chris has his part of Max, memories good and bad. Max does too. Max cried, "but I don't even remember what he looks like"..in your heart you do. I have a lot of memories of people who came in and out of my life, some I have re-connected with on FB. YAY! Other's I don't know if I'll ever see again. *sigh. New friends, old friends, family it is all about the connections. I am glad I have FB, I am not happy with my addiction with it. Choices, hard ones are facing me.
I have figured I need a path, not let life take me wherever, or nowhere but set goals and see what I can become. This is just one place I let out my thoughts, I talk to my therapist and my hubby and all my friends. They give me strength, hope and courage..facing the demons of my past and present and conquering my fears. I envy my friend who has found peace in his day, not letting the past swallow you with regret and not fearing the future. Each day is a new day of promise and learning..I am aiming for that peace.
I have been ill, again...it scares me. I have gone through so much medical BS already, I asked for prayers from my FB friends and was (here I cry) overwhelmed by the response. It was so beautiful and gave me courage and calm to face the next stage. Whether these new tests show positive or negative I am still "cool" for the most part.
Choices, life choices..will talk some more about this but it is late and I need to sleep. Thanks for listening and hope you are thinking about where you are headed also. TTYAL
I told Max tonight that every time we make a friend we give them a piece of our "soul" and they give us a piece back. Chris has his part of Max, memories good and bad. Max does too. Max cried, "but I don't even remember what he looks like"..in your heart you do. I have a lot of memories of people who came in and out of my life, some I have re-connected with on FB. YAY! Other's I don't know if I'll ever see again. *sigh. New friends, old friends, family it is all about the connections. I am glad I have FB, I am not happy with my addiction with it. Choices, hard ones are facing me.
I have figured I need a path, not let life take me wherever, or nowhere but set goals and see what I can become. This is just one place I let out my thoughts, I talk to my therapist and my hubby and all my friends. They give me strength, hope and courage..facing the demons of my past and present and conquering my fears. I envy my friend who has found peace in his day, not letting the past swallow you with regret and not fearing the future. Each day is a new day of promise and learning..I am aiming for that peace.
I have been ill, again...it scares me. I have gone through so much medical BS already, I asked for prayers from my FB friends and was (here I cry) overwhelmed by the response. It was so beautiful and gave me courage and calm to face the next stage. Whether these new tests show positive or negative I am still "cool" for the most part.
Choices, life choices..will talk some more about this but it is late and I need to sleep. Thanks for listening and hope you are thinking about where you are headed also. TTYAL
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